I went back in flashback to the time I first saw him! He was the first guy who i ever had crush on! And I don’t know what was that thing that attracted me towards him but It felt really good whenever he was around! He is two years older to me and I was shy enough to not being able to ever talk to him! But I was successful enough to tell my feelings to him over an internet message! That’s it! I still have dreams about him like I used to do before! Just few days ago we were together in one theater watching movie and I so much wanted him to smile at me once! Just once..
So now I kept browsing his profile when I saw some song lyrics related to heart break…And I saw the comments…and there her best friend’s comment was about his break up with some girl! I don’t know it was true or she was just teasing him! Whatever it was It made me totally uneasy! I felt like crying that moment and kept watching that commenting in a way of analysing it in my mind! Then suddenly I thought “Why I am doing this! I am behaving like that I never had boyfriend in this time period!” I felt this thought only in the mind and not by heart! My heart was still crying!
Why did it happen I don’t know! But it made one thing clear that he still has that special secure Even after four yeas of his negative answer to my proposal! And even today when I see him I feel butterflies in my stomach! Is that love or just attraction??